Yesterday was a history. Tomorrow is a mystery.
But today is a gift, that's why we called it "Present".
Everytime I saw a varsity jacket, I saw a pride. A pride that the students brought with them everytime they showed off their jacket by wearing them. A pride for their school, a pride for their achievement (correct me if I'm wrong, seem like the varsity jacket originally made for the baseball players? the players' number and initial was sewed into their jackets).
The day I met you is the day I believe I was lucky. I was keeping myself busy on my phone in the corridor and you accidentally dropped your papers. Lots of papers. Ah, reckless boy. I got up from my seat and helped you to clean the mess. You looked tired. I offered myself to help you bring those gigantic load of papers to place you should bring it. With a thin smile, you made up your glasses and say "yes please, help me bring it to my car if you don't mind". It was a lucky day, luckiest day I guess. We didn't talk much, but when we reached your car, you asked if you can text me or be a friend in a chat application. That's when all of these things started.
Everyone says love hurts, but that is not true. Loneliness hurts. Rejection hurts. Losing someone hurts. Envy hurts. Everyone gets these things confused with love, but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all pain and makes someone feel wonderful again. Love is the only thing in this world that does not hurt.- Liam Neeson
I was not believing in love, again. I left a guy that became a knight that helped me with my works because I just wasn't have feelings for him. I also was in a frienemies condition with a guy that I used to love but turned out to create big trust issues with me lately. I knew love existed, but somehow I thought it probably forgot to come by into my life. Everything was perfect for anyone else but me. I felt that something was missing in my life and I couldn't find it.
Though I was dying in the circumstances, I tried not to let down anyone. But that's not working, even I created wounds in myself and other. I learned that without inner peace, you can't do anything. You can't. Then I happened to read that quote from Liam Neeson. I said to myself "I am not going to let myself in pain, anymore".
My mom told me to forgive but not to forget, so you couldn't be fooled twice. Seemed like I misunderstood it and took it as "not forgiving at all". I still can't get it, how can you forgive someone without not forgetting their faults? Because if you still remember their faults, those anger and disappointments stay still in your heart and mind. And for me, if I want to have peace and forgive, I have to forget. And I finally understand that forgiving is about giving peace to you, not just about you are right and they are wrong. People may call us foolish, but the most foolish person might be the happiest one.
I'm feeling like a fool every time I remember my love story. We both are like asymptote line, we can get closer and closer but never meant to be together. But he's my cup of tea, at least he was. Now, as we don't speak anymore, his existence starts to fade between my schedule. I also get myself busy towards other things, yes you can call it as my denial of his memory. I don't wanna sit in the corner and always be remembered by his sweet things. I'm letting you go, as my past love. But I made promise not to wave goodbye to you, I will try my best to work our friendship, keeping it in the best way it could be. If you read this, please understand that I was having a rough time, adapting to live without someone I really care.. but you are my cup of tea, and always are.
Romwe shirt - Charlotte Russe tank top - Nevada Jeans - HerVelvetVase heels
Hi and hi. After all these months I post about my outfit again! I have thought about abandoning this blog and do my works in college, but everytime I have spare time, I always find myself writing love stories and taking pictures again, to be posted here. I can't express how I like writing beautiful sentences. Maybe I should write a novel? hahaha it was my childhood dream and I dunno if I can make it happen. Now, I am positioned at a critical position in my student organization. I can't easily say no and have myself a lazy time, because they need me. It's also out of my mind to get this position. I just volunteering and helping in the events that held by the organization, but one day, out of blue, I was chosen to have this position. Doing things that you love, can make you go far..
And this post actually was for the Christmas outfit! haha look at the green and red there! however I was too busy managing my "job" in organization, college works, and lately, my own entrepreneur project, so this post was suspended until earlier Feb, ahaha. I'll write more about things that I'm working on, soon! So excited to share about my project with you all :)
Till we meet again, fellas! Believe me I'll get myself back here in every spare time that I have :)
Cheers to my first ever place review! I have been stalking food bloggers for a year and I am also a fan of lovely places. At first I wanna give review to Sweet Corner, a great dessert house near my campus, but as you can see in the google result, it has already gained the reviews it needs, so I think about giving other great places review.
Say Something Coffee. I bet most of you are playing "Say Something", A Great Big World's song in your head when you are reading that sentence, hahaha. I found this coffee shop through instagram and I can't deny how cozy this place is. The interior is arranged so minimalist and gives us some space to chill out. I spend time here with my high school friends few days ago and I can tell that this coffee shop is ABSOLUTELY recommended to hang out with your friends or just to have your "me-time".
Say Something Coffee is a hidden gem in the city, for me. The atmosphere you get when you walk into this coffee shop is kinda livefolk-ish, you can imagine those modern-looked guys take their coffee photos in this place. Say Something Coffee is similar with Koultoura in GreenVille Jakarta. I love both, ahaha. I don't know if this place is just opened or maybe its hidden location that keep this place away from lots of customer. When I visited Say Something Coffee, there's no other customer but me and my friends. I am impressed with how spacious Say Something Coffee is. I have visited some restaurant/cafe/coffee shop in shophouse (ruko) before, and they are really tiny. Overcrowded place and most of them don't have enough seat to serve all incoming customers. But Say Something Coffee is saying something different to the coffee lovers in Jakarta :)
For the menu, since I'm not an expert foodies, all I can say is the cakes taste great! I love their cakes, the flavor is just right when it melts in my tongue. However I'm not quite satisfied with their coffee. The appearance of their coffee is something promising, but the taste doesn't meet my expectation. Probably it will get better in time? If you happen to be around Taman Aries/Kembangan, make sure you visit this cozy Coffee Shop (before it gets overcrowded) !
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Place:
Say Something Coffee
Ruko Grand Aries Niaga Blok G1 No. 2-O Meruya,
Jl. Taman Aries, Kembangan
DKI Jakarta, Indonesia
Instagram: @saysomethingcoffee
Hi readers!
Yes I have to write some apology sentences to you all for ignoring this blog again and again, putting it in idle condition. My campus life has been so busy lately and it's actually drowning me with lots of activities that I don't expect... if I did it last year. How big the difference a year could make, just like those quotes thingy, and I think that's true. My first year in college was great.. and I'm turning into whole new person.. thanks to student organization in my faculty. My whole life, I think to be involved in student organization is a waste of time, I can do much more productive things and that's not including having a role in student organization.
Hey readers!
Glad to meet summer again. Summer is my
2nd favorite season, after autumn. Though I can't experience autumn in
my home country, but I do love it, and I am looking forward to
experience it every year after I move to Europe, several years from now,
hahaha. Summer is identical with sun-kissed skin, shirts and shorts,
shades and sandals. However I would like to express my inner summer soul
(remembering that I am negotiating with sunny days, almost 365 days in a
year) in a formal way, the navy look-a-like.
Friday morning, 6 AM. I woke up and I didn't even remember my dream, usually I did. I just felt really motivated to start a new day. People said that you knew you were in love when the reality was better than your dreams, and I agreed. I felt the adrenaline ran in my blood, kept my heart beating fast and my mind went wild, wondering how amazing it would be when I finally sat in front of him and listened to his stories after a long and tiring day.
I'm not a big fan of school. At first, going to school is excruciating me. I don't enjoy my times at school. I do my homework in a hurry, I prefer to browse the internet than listen to the teacher or do my homework. I don't always get a good score, I'm not that kind of popular girls who collect a bunch of boyfies, and I'm not that genius student that every teacher seem like fall into knees everytime they meet that student.
Going Out -- RoseWholesale Summer Giveaway inside! (closed)
By Helena Natanael - Thursday, April 17, 2014
Hi all!
My school has just started and it's getting to be really stressed. The pressure is everywhere and there're tons of tests that I have to pass through. I'm leaving high school in less than 4 months and it's really insane.
I discover this empty house abandoned by its owner, and I think this is a good place to take outfit. I like hidden places, because sometimes I feel uncomfortable if people passed by and looking at me taking outfit pics, lol. This empty house reminds me with the empty place in my closet where I used to put my DSLR. It breaks my heart everytime I remember it's taken by stranger.
Happy New Year 2014!
I'm so excited yet a bit scared about this new year. Because lots of things gonna happen in this year. Graduation and college life. Sometimes I just feel like I'm not ready. I still wanna play around and don't wanna grow up yet. But time flies and I don't have any power to pause it.
I wore this on my friend's birthday party. This is my last outfit post taken by my Canon DSLR. My DSLR is lost, with all its equipment such as charger, lens cleaning kit, and bag, also with 2 sunnies inside my camera bag. The one who find it is really lucky, right? At this moment I just don't know if I will continue posting outfit posts. Seems like this blog is going to become a random chitchat blog like it used to be before.. this incident just breaks my heart. My plan to join the photography club at college is also just a dream now. I just wish my camera could back, or my parents are generous enough to give me a new one. I just keep "everything happens for a reason" quote in my mind these past few days. Maybe God is directing me to find new hobby.
A photography project with my friends, taken on earlier December 2013. They asked me to take pictures of them, to be added on their portfolio. I just start loving to manipulate colors in photoshop, I agree with the quote "logic takes you from A to Z, but imagination and creativity takes you anywhere." I do love the surreal colors of leaves here, seems like these photos are taken in different world, lol... I recommend this place for sure, even with my kit lens can produce good quality of bokeh. All these photos were taken at Taman Kota 2 BSD, Banten. The city park is free to enter, and what I like the most is there's not many people here so you will be the main object of your photos :)
I just started to be a freelance photographer of my friends, but I'm afraid I can't anymore..
Have a good weekend!
I believe that some of you already know about PersunMall. It's an online store provides apparels for women. With their 5 years of experience, they know how to satisfy their costumer.
I've browsed on their store and I found some apparels that I think I should put into my wishlist for christmas, they are just really "me" and I would love to have them in the future.
1. Flower Print Chain Bag
I've been into floral things for several years.. not a floral addict but I just adore the beauty and the classy of them.. and this bag is such kind of perfection. Really love it!
2. Retro Flower Print Chiffon Shirt
Okay, this is floral again. But what makes me like this shirt is about the pastellish color and the floral print that looks like watercolor. Just wear this with ombre short.. and you're ready to catch everyone's attention.
3. Exaggerated Platform Sexy High Heels
From the heels name, we already know that it's exaggerated, hahaha.. Maybe my mom won't let me buy this heels, but I would buy it! This is the good way of exaggerate, not trashy, but not too "safe" like other usual heels.
4. Square TR-90 Polarized Rx Sunglasses In Coffee
Recently I'm drooling everytime I saw a chic sunnies. Sunnies is kind of fashion statement, and from other blogger fellas, they use it to cover the panda eyes on outfit shoot.. So they don't need to put heavy makeup on their eyes. And this kind of brownish sunnies is chic, in my opinion :)
5. OSA Sequins Neck Lace Stitching Shirt
I always love the idea of mixing polyester fabric with lace cut between it. Looking vintage and lovely.
6. Rhinestone Detail Cover Drawstring Closure Canvas Backpack
This is the kind of backpack that I would wear everyday. The rhinestone stud in the front of backpack makes it cool, and the pink candy color makes it girly. Watch out, the other girls at school might give you envy look when you wear this ;)
7. Flower London Contrast Pullover
I think this is really cool. Winter doesn't always means dark outfits, right? you still have the right to play with colors even it's cold outside. The floral touch of this pullover gives it playful mood, but still warm and comfy to wear along the freezing season.
That's all my wishlist for christmas! Make your own, just visit PersunMall.com and browse :)
I've never wondered in the past that my life can be like this. I've never imagined myself being a blogger with supportive readers, and I've never expected that photography can be a big part of my life. Being an 18 years old young lady, with all experiences and achievements that I've got, feels amazing.
Hello!
How fast the time flies, it has been a month since my last post lol.. I've been very busy with school --those assignments, tests, and compressed curriculum because of the national examination. I'm having a short mid-term holiday for next week so yay for that! :D
Few days ago I attended my friend's birthday dinner. I was so glad because this time I could wear "boyish" outfit! hahaha.. I'm kinda bored with my girly outfit. My friends and I giggled and laughed a lot there, so many funny things happen and I will miss those moments, my last moments in senior high school.
Hello!
Oh my, I'm a 12th grader now. This is my senior year. My last year on high school before I face the real world. For me, it's my last chance to do something memorable, something that my friends and I will remember 'till the old days.. it's time to shine bright like a diamond.
Hello!
Since I was a kid, I addicted to everything related with Disney's Princess. My favorite is Belle from Beauty and The Beast, how about you? hahaha. 'Till now, I always want to experience an amazing princess' life. A princess have their own magical life, and amazing dresses. This time, it's my fantasy since I was a kid, came true. I became a princess for a night, when I was attending my classmate's birthday party, last week. The long dress made me felt like I was a princess, lol.
Hi all!
How was your weekend? Me myself was having a great one. I attended another sweet seventeenth party, lol. The party was gone wild and it's just really memorable. Hahaha. The pics will be posted later :)
About this post, I just can't stop taking pics of Cynthia's birthday cake (and cupcakes)! really cute and mouth-watering.... Then for Cindy&Clara the twin's dinner, I found myself taking pics multiple times on their photobooth, causing the photobooth's printer ink ran out, hahaha... *silly me*
Hey all!
I had saved some outfit posts these few last months, I took it when I was attending my friends' sweet seventeen birthday parties. Because I think it's too much to be split in different posts, so I merge it up into 2 posts.. These posts contains 17 pics each, related with my friends' birthday parties :D
