Dear the shy boy that secretly has the heart of gold, 


You are the one that catch my eyes recently. First time I met you, I didn't expect to fall in love with you, at all. But I have to admit that I get interested quickly with smart guys. And that leads from just a "wow, he's so damn smart" to sparkles in my eyes every time you are around.


Sometimes I wonder why my heart chooses you. Feelings work in mysterious yet illogical ways, those things that my brain can't take, are the same things that my heart insists to have.
 


Dear my love, please be in love with someone else better than me. It would break my heart into pieces, but it'd also give me courage to move on. Because as long as we are still close, my heart would always want you and my brain can't stop it, my brain can't stop that ridiculous thing called love. My heart would still skip a beat every time I see your smile. My knees would still turn into jelly every time I hear your deep and manly voice. My body would still feel safe near your strong arms. My lips would still smile when I see your stupid random acts. Those feelings are beautiful, but I'm enough with this, I can clearly see how this one ends.



I'm thankful to have you turning my world upside down and bring my heart in a roller-coaster. I wish I could fall in love with someone else, to heal my wounded heart just like you heal me once. But until that time, let's create good memories of us, so when it comes to wave goodbye, we are wearing smile in our lips and don't let the tears out of our eyes.

Hello!

Last week I went to a Mall in West Jakarta, to watch the newest Batman movie. I bet you all have known it, right? lol. Because the cinema didn't allow us to get in (if I brought DSLR camera), so sadly I didn't bring my DSLR. I only brought my pocket camera. So apologize me about the below-average quality photos :(


I just received this stunning shirt from OASAP, and I quickly fall in love with the fabric of this shirt. So comfortable to wear! The heart pattern is adorable too, makes me feel full of love and happiness. I don't know is it only my feeling or it's true, I think the fabric is a little bit mixed with water-proof material. When I was having lunch at Glosis before watch the movie, my shirt was spilled by the ketchup sauce! I quickly took some tissue and clean it up, and it became clean, only leaves little grayish spot on my shirt (you can see it on my close up photo below). If I wear another shirt, it will leaves a big embarrassing spot on my chest. Gosh I feel lucky, because I wore the right shirt that day, lol. Since that day, this heart pattern shirt from OASAP becomes one of my favorite clothes in my closet :)


How's life, guys? Recently I like to update the playlist music on my phone, any recommended songs? Share with me about your favorite song or movie :D

Hello!
Nowadays I feel kinda lazy about blogwalking.. sorry guys if I haven't replied your responses/comments.. It's 2 days left to the semester exam.. and I start to study more. This semester exam will affect my next grade, science class or social class. I want to enter the science class, wish me luck! *finger crossed* However don't worry, I will back and blogwalking again on the next 2 weeks!









Here are some stuffs I ordered from Romwe.com. For the clothes, I will reveal it on the upcoming summer holiday, so wait for it! :D I am satisfied with Romwe's apparel, affordable price with best quality.. Absolutely will order again from them. Recommended online shop! ;)
Anyway, thank you for LookDeLoop shop and Ellyzabeth for the adorable mustache bracelet! so cute :D












Happy Birthday, Dad! Thank you for being my first "crush", my protector, my best friend, and my inspirator. I will try my best to make you happy and proud of me, I owe it all to you. I love you ♥

School is driving us crazy.. so let's have a little break! I like to edit my old photos when I'm bored.. Yes, these photos are "old", but I think it suits my imagination :) Hope you like it!












Anyway thank you GLOSSY ALLURE who has sent me a beautiful red dress! I won her giveaway, and I've received the parcel last 2 weeks.. love you sis! the beautiful dress will be revealed soon <3


Then, I wanna congratulate my beloved schoolmates + blogger fellas + my first model on photoshoot > > Ellyzabeth Tanaya. She have been featured on a fashion magazine, named DRESSCODE. I'm happy with her achievement, and my smile gets bigger when I saw my photograph of her, are in it! Click here to see my photographs of Ellyzabeth.

Still about Ellyzabeth, I'm surprised when she contact me and tell me that I won her first giveaway! Whoa.. winning 2 giveaways in a row? It's more than I have expected! Thank you God, for all these blesses :')






Psst, don't forget to join my first giveaway! It will be ended on 21st May, so make sure you have entered it in  a chance to win a galaxy dress and 3 other cute stuffs, for 4 lucky winner! :D Click here to pop there!
and may the odds be ever in your favor :)


Location of photographs: 
Strawberry Cafe, Tanjung Duren, Jakarta // Dunia Fantasi, Ancol, Jakarta // Hongkong Cafe, Central Park Mall, Jakarta. 

post title: inspired by a beautiful inspiring blog named "Let Me Dream" (click click click!), by Momo.

Let me feel this feeling... even if it's just temporary..

because nobody can make me smile like you do..

Recently, I feel a strange feeling that I haven't felt for years. I remember exactly when the last time I feel that, it's 11th October 2010, the day when I breakup with my (ex)bf. Since that day, I can't feel anything. I became a cold, geek, and boring girl. In try to forget the heartbreak, I study all day long, never touch internet and computer again, and neglect this blog, for approximately 6 months (until the National Examination for 9th grader, Junior High School). I wanna show him and the world, that Imma rare girl, and breaking my heart will be the worst mistake that he ever done. Then yeah, I'm pretty satisfied with the achievements I reached because of the "broken-heart attack".

Okay, that's just an intermezzo. Now, let's back to the topic. I feel a strange feeling that I haven't felt for years, I'm pretty sure that's love. I always wait for his message, looking at my blackberry every minutes like a fool.. then when his message appear, I can't stop smiling. I sleep late, I wake up early. Recently he becomes my sunshine in my cloudy days. He brings what I have asked to God every night. He fulfill the emptiness in my heart.



Every time I open my eyes in the morning, the first breath I inhaled is for him. I still here, it's because of him. But, I don't have the brave to tell him this feeling. I just feel...this is not the right time. I have to wait. For now, I just wanna consider this as a dream, not reality. I'm too scared to "wake up", I'm too scared of losing him. I just wish that he could feel what I feel right now, and still look at me with his shining eyes, like yesterday, without changes... I'm just too shy to say "I love you".

It's almost two month after I started to feel this, and now I think it's time to move on. I can't stuck here forever, waiting for him. Though I have a strong feeling for him. We both are way too different. So, I decided to let go.. and call him "my brother", not "my love". I wish all the best for his education and life. (Now he studies about medical treatment, in Pelita Harapan University) If we could turn back our time, I will hold myself not to talk much with you.. I'll try to not fall with you. Meeting you, I even don't know is it a miracle or a mistake..



However nothing's gonna change my love for him. I just try not to show my feelings and caring for him anymore. Actually we all, the humans, will never stop loving someone.. we just try to live without them in our life. Dear Mr. J, once again I wish u all the best :)

I'm letting you go not because you're bad or something else..


it's because you make me wait for too long.

Hello! have been thinking about what the love really mean for me.. Kinda confuse about the feelings that "sparks in my heart" recently... I'll reveal more on my next post! :)

What I wear: mom's crochet, unbranded tosca green top, stylee jeans, Gucci watch, Bellezza sling bag, Bata shoes.




title credit: a tweet from @andrewsudhana's account
photographer: Ellyzabeth Tanaya