Since the beginning, I was close to 2 wonderful men. Both of them has their own magic in bringing me happiness, and has their own unique flaws. One was golden-hearted and always helping me out in my college task (yes, I do attracted with smart person, stupidity is something that I literally hate); and the other one is just a humble, humorous person whose the personality matches me perfectly. Let's call them Mr. Smart and Mr. Humble. Mr. Smart drives my heart to the moon and back, but it's always Mr. Humble that knows my 2 AM thoughts, dark jokes and sorrow. 

"What if I like a girl, but there's another man that likes her and they are both very close to each other?" Mr. Humble sighs, not long after knowing that I locked my heart to Mr. Smart in a relationship. Knowing that Mr. Humble said that, a little part of my heart breaks. I wonder how different life could be if he doesn't miss me...


Years later, lots of things happen, and I've broken up with Mr. Smart. Now I'm trying to live the fullest each day until I am ready to commit again with someone.. and somehow I hope that next someone is Mr. Humble. He is someone that I can trust and I know closely, for now. I can say that we're as close as before.. but he has changed. I don't know if this could be my second chance or not. However in most cases, chance never knows twice, and we'll need to bear the consequences until the day we die... 




Hi 2021! I do hope it's not the extended version of 2020, hahaha. Lots of thing happens in my life through 2020: lots of death, in the world, and in my family.. My grandmother and my father died in 2020. Life goes on, sometimes the sadness kicks in when I remember moments with them, however I always remind myself that every living soul will someday die, we're just waiting for our turn to go. Thankfully I received so much love and support from my circle so I can go through the hard times. I hope in 2021 life will be better, I do miss travelling so much! I wish to visit Singapore and Japan as soon as they don't ban travellers from Indonesia, hahaha. I'll also be saving up the budget to visit West Europe, within the next 5 years (hope so)...

Have a nice day fellas!